I went out for a ferry ride last week and it opened my eyes to the world round me passing me by. The people the places the food the colors the sights the sounds. ^___^ I'm awake and no one can stop me now.

Tags: taichou
Current Location: Living Room
Current Mood: 8D
Current Music: Ozzie Osbourne - Diary of a Mad Man

all in the title o.o 8D that and NEW HARD WOOD  FLOoRING   2  BLOCKS FROM THE CON 8D  NEW APARTMENT FTW 8D

Tags: lulz
Current Location: Front room new place
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: ICP - Walk to the light

It  took 4 days with 6 special people to make me wake up and see the world in a new light lets see how my hand plays out ^_^ in a posative aspect

sakuracon 09 3 yaoi obsessed fan girls was having a alright time. Saturday recieved a  call  from the most unlikely of people. Who tell me who's idea it was to steal from me. And for being able  to forgive and forget  and get over shit and lies Harris Shiela  uve earned my respect especialy harris. It  takes a big person to admit things  are fucked but a even bigger one to say im sorry. Kim and john i will spare not   temper on i told trhem what goes around cokmes around 1 person got theres and apologized. Kim you always say u want to be a good friend yet u hang out with a liar and a whore just becaus eu want your way and your always  betrayed by other well ill be the one to say it you are nothing more then a back stabbing    sponge  and im SICK OF IT to believe i had sympathy for you but to find out  u and john did all of this becaus eu had a hard on for my old roomate YOUR PATHETIC!

I am a person who can forgive and forget but to talk some one into stealing from me my   things then pinning it on them then yourserlf using them as i was accused you have put the biggest knife in my back . You're a liar, A user, And the worst excuse for a person i have ever had the mis pleasure of meeting. I had  so much regret and missed you because of  all the  drama to find out you wer pulling  the tricks. And john if i ever meet your  wanna be know it all ass any where ANYWHERE ill shake you to the  fucking core and you know i  will you pathetic missleading welp of a human being . Reap it. is all i can say reap what you sew.

Kirsten..... What can be said about little kirsten, I  miss you .__.  we used to hang out so much and you  got so busy i  miss you   and i didnt see  you at con wich im sad for and miss you TOT . Lizzy DAMMIT I MISSED UR MUDKIP and im glad you talked to me was nice to see a friendly smile. Alex i missed you man i wanted to see you D: miss ya man.

 Laura  Kia  and Ed ed is hyper but has major talent with a needle n thread all be it a little rambunctious  is a welcome friend to have.
Kia  was making her costume dragging others down with her wont have that anymore gonna make her fix all of her stuff prior to con but i wouldent have  changed it for the world. And laura kiki had to have been the on eperson  to keep me   goin weak tired exhausted hungry and 1 person was encouraging was makin sure i was alright gave me the oppertunity to room at con and i cant thank her enough (aside from paying her back for others con debts) but i will do it because  out of all the peopl ei know from cons she talks   to me almost daily   for the year we have known one another hard times  for her gluton free life style but i have no greater respect for someone. You  guys are really all  important to me and i wouldent replace any of you its true  what people say that best friends are for ever  busy or not a real friend even in that busyness  says  hey taichou we need to  kendo or brings you cookies  (kirsten) or simply says morning taichou with a smile.

Life is hard  but the people u love make it barable.

Rest in peace aunt peggie you will always be with me in my memories getting hot wheel cars making food and eating all the amazing recipe's you could  make. Love you always aunt peggie

And ill   miss you to paige you are  one person i can never replace i love you paige ill always have a place for you in my heart you wer on eof my best friends.


well every one im writing drawing   amv's its all back n  going    so i say u wanna han gout call u wanna do anything U  GIVE ME A   CALLLLLLLLLLLLL    TAICHOU IS BACK AND
READY TO ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLL

Current Location: Front pc room
Current Mood: Happy
Current Music: Enigma - Gravity of Love

a old dear friend of mind finaly   slipped out of the coma .. ill miss her..goodbye paige.. you wer one of my best friends who never lied or used me and was honest.. ill miss you T________T

Current Location: Computer room
Current Mood: Sad
Current Music: U2 - Beautiful day

No im not dead despite the wish's. And im putting the police to work on 4 particular peopl ebecause ive tried the kind patient approach.No matter it will be dealt with.Constant worrying about a certain persoon and there health worries about my family what few friends i have though they dont make it apparent.And the over whelming need to just get the fuck out of dodge..What empted all this was there some master plan?Some prick behind the controls saying lets fuck it up a little more ;D? Not quite sure anymore mind numing work might lose my condo and possibly my mind. Would have los tit had not been for my 2 best friends my little brother and best friend chris and 1 other dear person.So any who im alive world you can still bite my cork but now its known i live . So when does me and the world hand out .

Side note I GOT ROCK BAND NYAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA

Current Location: Computer Room
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: DeVotchkas - How it ends

What else would be appropriate to call my life  hipacritical friends ass holes jerks destroyers users and liars tisk tisk taichou how could u jus let ur guard down and trust people shame on you shame shame in all duality im just typing to my self to show my self how ignorant ive been trusting shady people who have less sense then a penny ooooooooooh well what the hell may as well spell it out   i was told i spent all my money before aki con 50 dollars tward bills 50 for food for the ungrateful peopl ei roomed with 25 for a 1 of a kind harlock grav gun 20 on art for my little brother mom n dad and 15 for my dinner the night i left then sakuracon i spent 400 for a friends costume to be sure she was ready used my condo as a hotel wich got trashed carted em around at or expense and even took my lest 20 dollars n got people food at the con gosh im sucha prick.


indeed i am and to those who lik eto piss me off for taking my armor a bayonett i payed for and a   antique katana and a sword they dont even own onc eu transfer money to   sita's account its becomes hers and we have the reciepts to prove it ^________^ so if im pushed il;l push harder instead of using me  and then running to my friends when i put my foot up ur ass for being a lazy ass hole becuas eu work boohoo I WORKED 12 HOURS A FUCKIN DAY TILL I MET U Guys and then i stopped unlik eu i made money enough to be lazy  i dont care who believe's me or not boo fuckin hoooo  ^________^ im a hertless prick for sayn u worked go clean UR FUCKIN PIGSTYE OF A ROOM and i do believe she was the x factor my condo got messy and now it seem to be clan and staying it odd takin 4 bags of trash outta some ones room finding dishes of food  scattered around  eh its fine why dwell i know who the real friends are just a pitty i wasted almost 2 years on the ones who werent nothin but blind hipacrits and i just dont giva fuck any more let them be it will come back to them i promise that karma always bites one in the ass they taught me that and BOY does it ^_______^


putting ur   faith in some one who lies  and get spissed when u dont bend to there fuckin will yeah i tease n taunt my friends but its me its my way to show i care dont lik eit fuck off and die and ge toutta my life i aint gonna be som elil conformist bitch to the masses so people will like me u be u and in the end thats who u are but almsot 2 years and im brushed off like im nothing? hahaha ooooooh the old taichou never left he has been here a lil lost and scared all along ^______^ but real friends would have seen that but blind pansies arent my friends any more and to any one who reads this if u dont like that touch titty ^_^ lik ei said im weeding out the bad people while as for sakuracon i now will be stayin with my friend dustin wich i  hung out with all last sak because the mass mob of fuck nuts ditched me like (real friends would) for there own petty shit i sat with trhe best funniest group i know but yumi wasnt with us or it woulda been epic  ^_^\


oooooooooh and boy will sakuracon be fn becaus eif my armor isnt returned in top shape before febuary ther ewill be hell to pay im done playin this dumb shit and actin like im timid and dont know shit its time to be me again fuck the depression upset yes i am but it will pass when some one ,loses a friend and u simply brush it off or ignore it  r not a real friend ur a coward ^_^   shamefuly i know such people but hey who cares like i said out with the bad in with the good went to church for the first time in monthes sunday and i may not be catholic but goddamn it felt good might be going to ohio for a while in the summer to visit my ailing father wich no one seems to giva fuck aboutand ill be findng out this wekk if the cancer is real or just somthin in muh ass thas outta place cross ur fingers because once itsknown i have nothing holding me back nothing to depress me hold me down


fuck the asthma fuck the liars and users and so called good people the difference between me n them is i dont give second chances not anymore liek shaun at kumoricon he hasnt been back since ^_^ and is grateful i didnt break his jaw ive had a long hard life and i actualy wanted to end it 2 days back i did in the worst way soooooooo badly but i thought to my self ar eu gonna let these people beat you? you are the strongest u are the one others look to for strength you are the rock in some peoples lives as i spoke to my 88 year old great grandmother she says to me (brandon honey how are u  gramma sure missy you) i reply im alright grama times are hard she replies(now brandon allen barlow ive never heard that tone from you) what tone grama ( the tone like u give up you know how proud of u we all are how much u help ur family with things the need and always spend all u got gettin the family gifts or callin u are stronger then any thing that can bother you yor better then that ) im trying grama as hard as i can (well honey stop trying it will work out youll see i love ya honey ) she passes the phone to my grama who raised me like a son not a grandson becaus emy real mother abandoned me and i started to cry  grama i fee like ima failure i feel like im letting u guys down and boom hits mei know theat im no ti know ho wmuch seeing me succeed meens to them


so i suucked it up spoke to half my family and i smiled a real smile for once in along time those i cherish and are true people who care
sita Dad Mom Zack Grama Great grama Scott patrick maddy rose malyssa arwen tegan dawnie auntie april (spidey)  scotty my frind who has a kid now >....< laura dustin alex kirsten ruth jake jay kelly dunken robert elise..Max... those are the real people and alot other but those are the people who impact my life i am not alone and i will NOT be miserable ANY FUCKIN MORE useing a friend to get to others then turning on that firend is wrong and tthe deepest cirlces of hell are reserved for people like that  and ILL be damn fucking sure im there pointing and laughing becase its who i am......im strong im cocky im loving im vicious im relentles im indominable i am the worst night mare of bad people i am the thing that makes people who hurt others petrified who it is what the reason its will alllllllllllll end here ill get my shit back as i asked or ill be furious at the same time i offered for them tog et there stuff wich i feel should meen a great deal to them but if they want to be pompus and stubborn and idiotic let them it will be there down fall because even the good people have there breaking point


this is my last life journal post so an one hwo has a problem fuckin save it i dont care and so its known alex kirsten none of this has to do with u guys and i trust in ur abilities to divine the truth i wont despute this shit of theres period its beneath me let them spout shit and look dumber then they alredy are makin em selves otu to be let karma give em a helpin heep of ass pain its well deserved i already got mine with a cancer scare withim still freaking nervous about so i have a excuse and u who have and kinda guts know im on msn  so u can get to me on there 4 emails have been blocked from it and any thing i own so thats neither here nor there as my last post it needs to be epic

IMA CHARGIN MUH LAZARS





so to all of my friends and loved ones gnight n good bye for now.........

Brandon Barlow (Taichou)

Current Location: computer room COMFYY~~
Current Mood: rejuvenated
Current Music: Breaking Bnejamins - Rain Rain

keep the armor and the sword im done with you all ^_^ all better ignore the previous shit alllllllllll done

infront of biast eyes dont mean its not mine 8D slander is also illigal and theft  specialy when the person who made the purchase with there paypal was sita o= oh my oh my salright i dont care any more ether ill get my armor and my bayonet i payed for   cuz the knives r mine the walkies r shauns /hmm i jus want my stuff back so i dont have to be more of a dick then i have to be i dont want bridges burnt u work to fix things not run away like COWARDS becas ei know none of u are that so show some spine and character ^_^ its ther eu jus have to find it where ever it ran too TT______________TT it really hurts bein this much of a ass hole specialy when im not even angry any more jus upset n hurt tha tpeople i helped n cheered up OH AND kim remember aki who got 50 dollars in food for u all? i know im such a greedy fck huh 8D the stuff at sakuracon bunking at my place havin us drive s all wooooooooooooooowwwweeeeeeeeee i sure am meen salright ull all realize u cant put the blame of all things on 1 person and kim u of all u never turned ur back on me but randomly poof? lol yeah ur a pain in the ass alot but leas ti have the guts to tell u to ur face and call u on it have fun with ur new best friend ill arrange a time to get my stuff and drop off the res tof hers i can fit in the car her statue n such n such costumes  im tired of the fighting ur all in the wrong right now as much as me u just dont see it o__o
i meen really? is all the name calling accusing and bitching worth losing some one who does any thing he cant to help IF CAN i know taichou has lil money now i outlived my usefulness right ^_^ salright u brnd the bridge but dsont mean im at fault when u sit ther eat night and look inside of ur selves sayin was i wrong  did i do the right thing ull know becase  this is not the first person u did this 2 sheils u act the same way to all when u get pissed but im not takin it u   gimme my shit ill giv eu urs no drama no name calling finger pointing and the friendship can slowly come bck if its wanted i want it to  but since u seem so insistant im satan its fine see im ranting again i jus dont get it ^_^ be gettin my house in december too boot ^_^ oh sheila u also left ur keys here for ur house u need to think befor eu act let ur brain catch up to ur mouth befor eu lash out D: < its idiocy and nacceptable form any one frined or not ether way im done fightin gimme my shit its over that armor was payed for under sita's name with the online reciept to sita not u jus cuz u transfered money meens shit all this stuff was purchased under her name i want the armor and my wrods 1 wich u didnt even remotly fuckin buy nor the bayonet u got the cabon steal one if u have a reciept for that i dont care i want my stuff  so stop ur bull shit and stomping and pissing and moaning grow the fuck up and act like ur a freakin adlt  u have no right to sit there and lord judgement over me and bitch and call me out when ur doin much worse then iever could  so u can think on that and hit me back on here if u can be civil and keep it short becase ur number and theres have been blocked from the cells for good so im done with it all figure out when i can get my armor and swords and ill be outta ur lives for good till then dont breath a word even remortly tward me because it will be instantly deleted n blocked take care sort ur shit out i love u all be safe have a good evening

i have witness;s to my art amv's n music ^_^ before u jump to conclusions ask im jus so delightyfuly happy i was right and so blind to what others wer tellin me ooooooooooooooooooooh its amazing